NAILED DOWN // EVEN STILL
you
were the poem i thought of in the middle of the night
Convinced i didn’t need to write you down
because
there was no way i could forget something so lovely
there was no way it could leave me
i always wanted to memorize your smile
like that last time you know you’ll see the shore
or mountain ranges dissapearing in the review mirror.
i desperately studied the creases of your laugh
but something in me knew
what i’d remember is
the way you stuff your hands in your pockets when you walk away
the way your head hangs low when you are resolute.
you
were hurt that collided into me as i turned the corner
i had no time to prepare for the shock
you
were the late sound of the firework exploding
you
were sweet words in my ear while your hands nailed my feet to the ground
you
were the kindest executioner & the greatest twist ending.
i didn't see you coming
but i never saw you leaving
even still
what causes my heart to get stuck
Throbbing in my throat is that
the one i still want to make laugh
nailed me to the ground—
left with all those sweet words
Numbing a pain i know will come
even still
even still
this forever your song in my mind: even still.